Random,Nonsensical...Messy

Heaven and hell.....I've seen it all
disguised in brutality,
rhetoric in essence....metaphysical.
waking up from slumber and...creativity.

quiscently...I watched them in awe...
recidivism bound me tight..
No one would believe what I saw...
My apperception is always right.

acquisce...it was never my type..
being cognitive is what I strive..
but volitional acts..and the surrounding hype..
Repudiate love...and NO..you can't thrive.

happiness is just a state of being..
amour-propre....pretending and realising
life and death..and what comes in between..
happiness and me...just more than a fling...

All that I have said.....or haven't...

I loiter in the dimly lit alleys of my heart,
loved a nascent feeling..
As the naked emotions dance round me...
I retreat to a corner.

The dark corner where I came from...
when silence drowns everything..
darkness shields all...
I would like to repay my dues.

But who is going to ask for it???

Beatified by resentment...
my eternal search for complexity
I regulate my existence
as impatience binds me in a cage...

I await for a miracle...
holding my breath..teeth clenched...
And I pay the price...
And I know I have to do so

I will keep on repaying as nothing's fair...